A Better Morning: PV 03

"Mmmnnmn...." I moaned as I slowly opened my eyes. My vision was blurry and I couldn't see anything. I scrunched up my face opening and closing my eyes so I would fix my vision. As the room came into focus I made a strange face.

Where was I?...

I lifted my head looking around. This wasn't my room. I shifted a little and felt something draped over my stomach and against my back. I looked over confused and smiled as I realized where I was. Bill was stuck against me, his arms flung over me and his face buried in my back. He was breathing quietly and it was only then that I felt his warm breath on my skin. Bill was cleverly hiding under the duvet the pillow beside his head. He didn't really sleep like an angel, but he sure looked like one. I chuckled a little and he stirred making a few mumbling noises but not waking up. I turned as carefully as I could and traced my fingers along his face. He was now breathing against my stomach and it tickled a little. I stroked his hair and leant down to place a small kiss on his forehead.

"See, you're safe with me..." I whispered as I continued to stroke his face. I didn't want to wake him up, so I just lay back, my hand petting his hair, and watched him. I nibbled on my lips and whispered very quielty so Bill had no chance of hearing.

"You know....I think I love you..." I sighed a little over how stupid I was being but turned my attention back to my sleeping beauty.

I hummed loudly as I stretched my arms and legs, yawning at the same time. I wasn't cold this night for once. I hugged my pillow more tightly in my arms, my face in it. I frowned a little as I felt it was kinda not the same feeling than a soft pillow. Openning my eyes, it took me few seconds before noticing it was a skin and squeaked, wriggling away from it before falling on the floor, groaning.

'' Ugh..! ''

I rubbed my shoulder a little before wincing, then remembered the person, standing up quickly.

'' Who ar-!? '' I said before seeing Tom.

I sighed in relief, climbing back on the bed, sitting beside him on the bed. For a moment I thought there was a stranger in my room, I smiled a little embarassed.

'' Good morning '', I murmured.

Bill woke up and stretched, probably doing the same thing I did. I was expecting some flamboyant reaction so I sat there patiently watching. Bill looked at my stomach and grunted, whimpering and squeaked as he wriggled backwards falling off the bed. I snorted a little as I tried not to laugh. Bill stood up quickly about to shout at the stranger in his bed. He saw who I was and sighed, He climbed back into the bed and smiled mumbling a good morning at me.

I smiled back at him pulling him a little closer putting my arm around his neck letting my hand hand relax against his chest.

"Morning," I chuckled at him, "Did you sleep well?

I asked the question and let my head drop a little to the side resting against Bill's head. I yawned a little again, opening and closing my mouth making strange awake noises.

Tom placed his hand around my neck while resting his head against mine. I lightly blushed and nodded at his question. In fact it was the first night that I knew Steven would come in my room, so indeed I had sleep really well. Though I didn't remember when I hugged Tom like that. Thinking about this made me flush a little again. Maybe one day I won't turn red. I nibbled at my lips and chuckled as he made noises with his mouth.

'' In fact... We don't smell great '', I laughed a little before slidding away from his grip, walking over the bathroom to brush my teeth for five minutes, then waited for Tom, ''What would you like to eat for breakfast...? '' I questionned him, watching Tom.

I bet Steven was already awake seeming it was now 9 o'clock of the morning. I looked over Tom again, still waiting.

Bill got up to brush his teeth and I did the same as he asked me about breakfast. I mumbled that anything was fine and went to brush my teeth. When I had finished Bill wasn't in his room. He must have been in the kitchen. I pulled on my pants and t-shirt before going downstairs. Bill was in the kitchen doing whatever cooking he was doing. Steven was sitting in the living room watching T.V. I walked into the kitchen and sat down watching Bill cook. I hummed a little to myself. Steven hadn't pestered Bill yet, I could tell by how Bill was calmly reacting. I wondered how often Bill was bothered in the night by his brother. I was going to ask him later when Steven wasn't within earshot.

I hummed while cooking some chocolat pancakes happily. For once I could cook for someone without beeing an obligation. Tom came in the kitchen, sitting at the table while I was walking around. I picked up some pieces of chocolat, placing them in the bol with the flour, milk and eggs. It took 30 minutes but in the end it was all great. Though I had made myself durty with some food on my face. I mumbled a quick 'sorry' to Tom before rushing in the bathroom, washing my face before coming back in the kitchen.

'' How much do you want pancakes?? '' I asked Tom while placing the plate in the middle of the table, pulling out the maple syrup and the fruits jelly too, '' I hope it's good... '' I mumbled sitting with Tom.

Bill continued to cook whatever he was cooking.

He'd be a damn good wife! I thouht as I watched him rush around the kitchen. Eventually the food was done and Bill excused himself to clean the mess he had made. He came back sitting at the table asking about how many pancakes I wanted. I held up 3 fingers with a big smile on my face. I loved pancakes. My mother used to make them every Sunday morning when I was a child but she stopped as I got older. I poured a pool of maple syrup onto my plate and dragged my finger through it and licked the tip.

"MMMMM...Yum!" I chuckled doing it again, "You know what, forget about the pancakes, I'll just eat this."

Oh right, that's why she stopped making them...

"I used to go through one of these a week when I was younger!" I laughed holding up the syrup bottle, "It was amazing I didn't get worms!"

As Tom hummed when he licked his finger with maple syrup on it I chuckled lightly. When he told me to forget about the pancakes I winced a little, I had cook them for him, I hope he was only kidding...

'' Eh... you're gonna eat the pancakes heh? '' I asked a little unsure and took a bite of my pancake.

Steven had already eat it seemed or he would have come in the kitchen with us. I stood up, grabbing two glasses and the milk from the fridge before pourring some in Tom's glass, placing it in front of him before sitting back at the table. It was strange to not fight with my brother though. I hummed a little, smiling lightly.

"Oh of course! I was just joking!" I laughed a little.

I took 3 pancakes and put them in a stack on my plate. I poured maple syrup all over them and practically inhaled them. Bill poured out some milk and I drank it happily smiling. The food tasted amazing. It was embarrassing to admit, but, BIll's pancakes were a hell of a lot better than mom's!

"Oh my god Bill, they are sooooo good!" I hummed as I kept eating.

I flushed when he said that my pancakes were good.

'' ...really? '' I asked as I smiled.

Steven wasn't saying that to me, he was only eating before leaving. I kept eating mines before drinking my glass, looking at Tom a little.

' How could a guy like him is interrested in me? ' I thought as I placed my plate away in the sink.

Walking over the bathroom I quickly brushed my teeths again, then felt someone hugging me by behind. I blushed before turning my face, gasping.

'' Steven...! '' I said while trying to unwrap his arms from my waist, '' Stop that...!! ''

He closed the door with his foot and started to kiss me hard in the neck, placing a hand over my mouth. I grunted and wriggled, trying to push him away. It wasn't the time to annoy me right now.

'' Come on Bill... '' he hissed lightly before nibbling at my skin.

Bill finished and went to the bathroom while sat and finished eating happily. Suddenly I really needed to pee. I finished my food, putting the dishes in the sink hurrying to the bathroom. I knocked on the door as I danced a little.

"Uh, Bill sorry, but I really need to pee!" I sang as I danced around outside the door.

Thinking about where had Steven gone? I shrugged to focused on not peeing my pants to care. Bill was really taking a long time to answer and open the door, I knocked again a little harder.

"Biiiiiiill?!" I whined.

I heard Tom knocking on the door and Steven hissed quietly in my neck, licking one more time before letting me go. He grabbed his tootbrush before starting to brush his teeth as I openned the door.

'' Sorry, Steven had closed the door by mistake '', I mumbled before quickly walking upstairs in my room to put on a turtle neck top to hid the little hickey my brother had make and came back downstairs in the living room, sitting to wait for Tom.

Maybe we could go shop? I never shopped with a guy. I mean yes, with Andreas, but he wasn't like Tom. I saw Steven leaving the house, wristling.

I waited for Steven to finish and went in to pee. Steven eyed me evilly as he left the bathroom slamming the door shut. I peed and went back down to Bill in the kitchen. He was washing the dishes. I went over to him and put my hand on his waist.

"Hey, want some help?" I asked, kissing his cheek.

I looked down at what Bill was wearing and raised my eyebrow.

"Um Bill? What are you wearing? It's like a million degrees outside!"

I felt Tom's hand on my waist, then he kissed my cheek. I flushed a little before he ask me why I had put on this top. I kept washing the dishes, thinking.

'' Well... we're inside no? I mean I can wear what I want? '' I mumbled not looking at him, '' Oh... Would you like to go shop...? '' I asked a little blushing.

The first time I could ask a guy to go shop with me! Though if he didn't want to it was alright, I didn't want to be annoying or something like that. And he could even help me with what to buy! Normally I choose by myself, but he was... my boyfriend, so it wasn't the same thing.

Bill asked me if I wanted to go shopping. I groaned mentally. I hated shopping. But I smiled and kissed Bill's cheek and nodded.

"That would be great!" I hummed as I hugged him, holding onto his waist.

I kissed Bill's jaw up and down as he kept washing the dished. I stroked his sides softly, sniffing his scent and humming at his warmth, I slipped my hands under Bill's shirt rubbing his sides more as he washed. He felt so nice. His skin was amazingly soft and smooth.

I can't believe you are mine.... I thought about Bill as I kissed him.

I smiled happily as Tom said he would come shopping and shivered when he kissed my jaw, slidding his hands under my shirt. I finished to clean the dishes, drying my hands quickly before pulling Tom's hands away, flushing.

'' Sorry... don't do that... '' I babbled lightly while grabbing my bag and went inside the bathroom to put some black makeup on my eyes.

After 10 minutes I had finish, coming back beside Tom and grabbedthe house key on the table. Steven had the key too so it was fine if I was locking the front door. Picking up my key's car too I went outside with Tom, locking the door before going in my car.

'' Em... is that okay if we shop for like... 3 hours..? '' I asked him with a little voice.

I knew boys weren't liking shopping normally.

Bill stopped me from touching him and I frowned as he went to the bathroom to do himself up. I waited for his in the kitchen. Did he not want me touching him? Did he not like me? I don't understand. I sat slumped again the kitchen counter annoyed. Bill came down and grabbed his car keys. I followed him out not saying anything and getting in the car. He asked about going shopping and I sighed.

"Bill, do you not like me or something?" I asked not looking at him, "You don't let me touch you? Don't you like it or what?"

As I turned on the car Tom asked if I didn't like it when he was touching me. I nibbled at my lips, starting to drive.

'' I... of course... but... not like that...? '' I said embarassed, '' I'm sorry but I'm not ready for all those touching... '' I murmured to Tom.

Tom wasn't disgusting me or anything, I was just uncomfortable with all those things. My brother was doing this with me, stroking my hips, kissing my neck. I shudered before jumping, noticing I should focuss on the road. I didn't want Tom to think I didn't like him. Though I didn't really know him... so it was normal I take my time, no?

I rubbed my face listening to Bill.

Damn....

I had over reacted. I understood that ill must have felt strange about being touched after his brother had been touching him. I nibbled on my lips. I was just so used to always touching and kissing when I was in a relationship. It's a nice feeling, to know that someone cares about you and always wants to kiss you and hug you and touch you. It was the way I had always shown affection. It was never a question with any of the girls I had been with. I just didn't know how to express my feelings any other way. I made a decision. I wasn't going to touch him any more. If he was uncomfortable I would just stop.

"That's ok...Sorry for brining it up." I smiled at him but it was false.

I kept driving and when Tom said it was okay with a smile, I just didn't see this as a real smile. It was like a fake one. After 10 minutes we were now at the town; my dream land. I chuckled to myself before going out of my car with Tom, locking it. I fixed my hair in the car's mirror before looking up at Tom, playing with my shirt a little. What if he needed sex soon? I mean, I knew I wouldn't do it before a long time that's for sure, but him... He seemed a person who likes to kiss and touch people, so that was nice, but no at the same time. I licked my lips and grabbed Tom's hand lightly before walking inside a shop with him.

'' Do you wanna go look for some clothes for you...? '' I asked him.

We got out of the car and Bill grabbed my hand bringing me over to the shops. I closed my fingers around his hand but only lightly. He asked about getting clothes for me. I shook my head no. The only thing worse than shopping for other people was shopping for myself. I let Bill drag me wherever he wanted me to go and I just followed quietly and without protest. I had a feeling I'd be spending my time sitting in front of a changing room humming and nodded yes or no.

My excitting mood to go shop went away when I noticed that Tom wasn't that much happy to go there. I stopped to walk and pulled at him lightly outside, walking over my car. Obviously he didn't want to go shop with me. I sighed lightly and openned the car's doors, going inside waiting for Tom to come in too. In fact it wasn't that much fun to go shop with a normal guy, he didn't even want to go so I won't force him. I looked in my bag, searching for my cellphone before looking at it. A little smile came up on my lips but I placed the phone back inside my bag, turning on the car.

"Hey what are you doing? I thought you wanted to go shopping?" I said as Bill changed direction and went back to the car. "Sorry, I'm a bit pissy, I apologise, I'm alright now, we can go shopping. I know you really want to." I said as Bill turned on the car.

I stood outside. I wasn't going to get in the car. It was unfair of me to take my bad mood out on Bill. I slapped myself mentally and tried to snap myself out of the mood. I took a deep breath, put on a real smile and waited for Bill to get out of the car.

Tom said that it was now okay before smiling at me, though I didn't smiled back. He didn't like to go shop, I wasn't that stupid. I'll just go another with Andreas. I rested my head on the steering wheel, closing my eyes. Since I said I didn't liked to be touch like that, Tom seemed pissed of. But I couldn't help it! When someone was touching me, I was freaking out! I took a big breath, trying to calm down as tears where coming up.

' Damn those tears... ' I thought before lifting up my eyes, looking outside.

I noticed that Tom was still waiting outside and sighed a little.

'' We'll go back to my house, it's fine I don't wanna go shop anymore '', I shrugged lightly.

Shit...

I could see that I had upset him. I didn't want him to be upset, but I was a little bit annoyed. I had always had a hard time hiding my emotions. What I was feeling always came out no matter how I tried. I scrunched my face up and grabbed Bill's wrist pulling him out of the car.

"Bring me shopping...I'll try on anything you want me to,"I said with a smile.